life of a college going cat

first post of 2010

2010-01-02T22:36:00.000-08:00

so fast already 2010 d, reali cannot believe though, coll gonna start 2molo d and worst of all, SAT GOT FREAKIN CLASS!!!!! WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF chiput la y la sat got class, jam plan nia == crap la lucky tis sem wan timetable not reali hectic (i hope XPP ), hopefully tis year can least be better than last la, owh yea i forgot i pass d new year WITHOUT a hp, cos mine still at workshop for like d 3rd week d haih wat la i wan new hp but no money get T.T

major update

2009-12-24T02:05:00.000-08:00

ok i know i havent update for like dunno how long d XPP, ok so first

-i went for training for my job in kl on d 13 to 15 dec, was kinda fun but bloody damn tiring nia

-got a new micro speaker from kl also XDD love it so much its tiny but extremely loud and its called xpod mini gen 2

-my hp was dying since nov d but didnt bother bout it till 3 days ago when it wont even turn on at all urghh, if i went and read d review earlier a i wont buy d hp d lor so gai wan baru 1 star out of 6

-i broke my specs also 3 days ago ( dunno y but most of my stuff ko 3 days ago 0.o) got new 1 today damn yeng look kinda like sunglass wan XP

-got a new headphones cos my old 1 died ( for those who want 2 know it was my 4th 1 tis yr XPPP )

-last but not least i gonna start work soon and its on christmas say T.T i wan celebrate le dun wan work haih

well currently i'm kinda broke too cos spent like almost 1k plus d and my hp wan bill not out yet crap la and also planning 2 buy new hp, which 1 u all think betta sony erricson w880i or k810i, getting more and more pokai d lor now haih.

update

2009-12-05T22:01:00.000-08:00

ok so its been quite a long time since an update, well lately i stop emo-ing d XPP, i jailbroken my ipod touch and tried 2 do d same 2 my god sis wan but .... == failed cos i forgot tat i cant cos of os prob, lol lets juz say there might be better times ahead i guess, XDD

of like and love

2009-10-22T03:18:00.000-07:00

Why izit always that those that i like and love always either are taken or do not like me,

it kinds of hurts me like that,why cant i just find someone who i can love and love me why is it so hard, how i wish this can be so much easier

just leave and let me be alone

2009-10-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

just leave please just let me be alone, everytime i see you, i feel the pain, why why must you come back and pain me just leave me ok, i ve already suffered enough, just let me move on ok, but sometimes i wonder, why do we have to meet again? after so long i see you i just cant let go so please if i dont answer you is not because i ignore u its just that i want to forget about you

one hella gathering

2009-10-08T03:36:00.000-07:00

today was kinda fun, the entire sem 3 IT class of inti went out XP ,funniest part was like about 7 to 8 ppl cram into 1 car rofl like sardine wan lor but kinda like norm d for us XP, went to qb about 12 although most of them there since 10 d == cos of math class lor go so late, went and watch surrogate kinda nice though although fatty keep on saying how nice tis and tat, lucky wasnt horror if not he will be like shouting and trying to hug d ppl next to him, then the rest of the class went bak for SAD class leaving 3 of us, then had lunch at mc d, bought d glass for me sis blue color kinda nice , then went to switch to find d i pod shuffle wan cover and control, asked d sales ppl and he said there is no cover ever made for i pod shuffle, i was like == wtf is tis person saying so gasak tat fella la then oni he go check d com and say err err err oni kl got bleh, went to laser try 2 find disc dun have then in d end went and buy donut to eat, went bak bout 3.50 kinda fun la cos get to katok fatty XPP

d cover wit control for d i pod shuffle, currently looking for it

thigs that keep me up

2009-10-05T23:44:00.000-07:00

although lately I've been kinda down but least i manage 2 find some songs that kinda make me happy again, well maybe a bit happy not totally happy, hope these song can bring up d mood of some who are like me =)

nearing the end

2009-10-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

its kinda fast that time flies, at first i was like owh its time for me to start my first sem in college but now its like i can already drive extreme well and its already nearing the end of my third sem of college, i cant remember who asked me this but they asked me what was the only thing i regretted so far, well all i can say is not doing well in spm tats all i regret, but for now its coming to an end already for my first year in coll.

am i just a ghost of a memory to others

2009-10-03T07:15:00.000-07:00

why do i ask you if you remember me you say no,

but when i say of others you shout in joy of the good time with them,

but all of the time i was in your life you say i dont exist,

why do you not remember, am i just a bad dream,

or a certain bad part of your life,

why am i just a ghost to almost everyone, what did i do wrong,

how i wish i can just know, so that i can stop being alone.

pain of being alone

2009-09-28T23:43:00.000-07:00

the feeling of just being alone all d time really is taking one hell of a toll on me, been down all the time and every time i see someone hugging someone or just loving someone, i feel so...... well...... left out and sad, its hurts me so bad. The thing is, those that i love they either have someone special or they do not love me and make as if i'm not even there at all. Sometimes i wish that i can just have someone to love, someone to hug and someone to love me back. I think that will only come true in my dreams though........

musics

2009-09-26T08:05:00.000-07:00

its been a while since i turned on my soundsystem and played music in my room, think is about time i did that again though, keeps me from being emo most of the time though XP been downloading one hell lot of disco and club music so its just a matter of time i guess before music will start blasting from my room again just hope it wont crack my room wan wall XPP

the only friends

2009-09-25T21:05:00.000-07:00

i dunno why but this few days itself been one hell of a emo time 4 me,

been kinda down alot, the reason, alot, least there are some who try to cheer me up though,

after so long, i finally think i found some true friends, those who do not just like throw you aside when you are down or you are in a problem, its not been easy to find friends like them, i think u know who you are, those who call me nena are the best of best friends anyone can have, so i thank you all for caring and finally making me feel like there are people who care and really like me for who i am, i really do enjoy the time spent with you all cos i dunno, i find that you all do understand me alot and try to fit me in everything whivh makes me happy, so thanks for making me happy for those days that i went out with you all =)

broken

2009-09-23T01:38:00.000-07:00

I dunno why but lately i've been feeling so broken and torn up lately,

even started to listen back to those emo emo kind of song again and again,

i dunno but this feeling is really taking its toll on me,

i cant even do anything right and keep on drifting off,

haih, i really dunno what to do,

and lets just say currently i'm caught in like one hell of a prob,

hope it will just pass or a miracle will just happened.

peace of mind

2009-09-22T03:02:00.000-07:00

sometimes just trying to get some peace and quiet around the house is very hard.

almost everyday i JUST HAVE TO LISTEN TO SONGS I DONT LIKE AT ALL!!!!

and i keep being disturbed like please do this please do that,

and people keep on wondering why do i always been so emo,

how i wish i can just have some peace around the house,

and how come what my sis want she gets,

while what i want i have to struggle and work my bloody ass off to just get what i want,

it just makes me feel....... well................ left out.

first time

2009-09-18T07:18:00.000-07:00

sometimes its d first time that counts and first times are those that hurt the most.

yes i agree that the past is the past,

but i just cant let it go,

sometimes i cant just let go and forget about it,

think i need some time off.